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For you.

I rush for candles. Birthday cake. Presents. Pinata.

So many small children, circling like sharks, their hands like fins...whispering. Singing, now we are raising our voices to celebrate her arrival, five years ago today she was born and welcomed and I would have welcomed you, too, small soul...if only...

I sit.

So still.

I'm scared to move.

If I do, you will exit this world faster. If I am SILENT maybe you will cling to the walls of my pelvis and scream, "No! I am not ready! One more chance, just one!" And I will hear you, I will listen. I will respond, I will grant you your moment. I have to cut the cake, I have to serve drinks, I have to hold the pinata still one more time...

I have to move.

My legs are weak, I am tired. I am hopeful but I know this is the end, we're finished and it's over and you didn't have the strength. I didn't have the strength. We're mutual in this, we signed a pact in blood...neither of us were convinced we could do our job correctly, we terminated our agreement quietly, you slipped out the door and back in to the ether. Would if I could just know you, for a moment...

I would have sung the stars down from the night sky for you, in my own way, out of key, the big dipper in to your cradle. I would have filled your bottle with the milky way, my winter child, my darling...

Perhaps one day we will meet again, for there must be the option to obtain a second chance, somewhere. I will conjure you, with witchcraft and incense. My body will be a cauldron. You will know wonder, tiny spark. You will breathe and feel and cry and hope and dream.

I can dream.

Perhaps one day we can dream together.
In July of 2013, on my daughters fifth birthday, I lost a child. It's been a long half a year. I'm tired.
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beeinthebottle Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014   Writer
I'm so, so sorry.

This is a lovely expression -- beautiful, sad writing.
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farand Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014
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Catreya Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Professional Writer
:'( I'm so sorry to hear that... your writing is beautiful on this part. I can understand your pain... I hope it gets better from here, and you can have your second chance.

God Bless.
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MistyStarBright Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
I'm sorry miss.
Love your daughter like you would have loved that child.
But never forget your child either.
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pullingcandy Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I absolutely do.
Just took me a long time to say goodbye :).
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MistyStarBright Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
I know how that feels.
I'm sorry, but I hope no other obstacles like that get in your way.
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